There are some things in life that are irreplaceable...I learn today that there are times when your life gets so fogged up you miss the smallest details in life. Yet this are the things that help put you where you are.
Today I celebrated my granny's bday. Its alwaes the usually catering at the small 3 room flat in Toa Payoh where I grew up years back.
Today my granny said " I almost couldn't recognise you. " It sudden woke me up hard to realise that I used to go over weekly and yet now I only see my grandparents during occasions. I suddenly realise how much my granny had aged and that my granddi seem to be fussy more over her. It shocked me to know how much precious time I missed out on 2 very special people in my life. I suddenly felt so bad at not having to put some time aside for them and how unimportant I made them in my life when they are the very ones that taught me what values in life means. The ones that go through all the trouble just to make me feel like a Queen.
I feel so terrible. I gave them up for people who fail to appreciate the time I sacrifice in order to be there. I gave it up to people who slot me in time slots and when time is up, I'm on my own.
This is stupid of me.I never want to be someone who fill up a timeslot and give on people who alwaes give up all the time in the world just to have me around.
Sometimes you never know how important a person is until the person is no longer available. I really miss Adidi and Wendy, in fact I miss my clique... I miss being able to just be able to talk to them with just a call or just a simple sms. I miss " Just be yourself, we like that best. "
I missed the times where we would just celebrate each and every one of our bdae by puttin in that extra effort to thing of fun things like
cupcakes = Bdae cake, after dinner = hang out and tok to your heart's content, fun = doing silly things... 
Sometimes its the LITTLE-ST of details in Life that you will deem unimportant but these are the very things you cannot do WITHOUT.
