Juz finish reading Cin's blog and realise how calm she is being about this whole matter after just a mere 3 days.

Seriously, though I'm not as affected since I really am slightly in my own world and I did not receive the nasty treatment head on... but I know in my mind I made a new decision... the person will no longer be in my list.

All these time... I have watch many come and go without much regret but this time I saw a different reaction. A very strong feeling to hold on, to work for the whole thing yet the results were worse than average.
Yet it is because I see such a persistent act, I held this person in high esteem.

Now... I no longer view this person even as leveled.

Sometimes I may sound like I'm complaining... Its just a way for me to release my stress.

Todae went through a taxing situation... only to realise it was because I'm not well learned enough and do not have enough knowledge hence losing confidence which result in being "Bullied".
Well, its a lesson learned and lesson I will remember.

Why did God give us a mind?
So we can have our own thoughts. To differentiate between what is right and what is wrong in our own mind.
Why did God create emotions?
So we will be able to feel the world that he created. Enabling us to experience different emotions, creating different memories.
Why did God give us a mouth?
So we can say what we think. Allow ourselves to express what is needed.

God gave these to us but God did not warn us the harm these items can cause.

Having a mind of our own is a good thing, yet there must be the discretion to know when to say certain things and when it will cause more harm than good.
If you have a mind and yet never bother to broaden it, only believing in what you see then it will only cause your own embarrassment. For people will think you shallow, petty and gullible.
God gave us a mind to help us. To be able to sit down and think what is the issue and what would be the best way to help.
If we are unable to think clearly, then slow down.. take your time, for a mistake may put you in bad light.

Emotions... People always say, " Do not let your emotions rule you.. " . Sometimes we get so blinded by our emotions that we do not use our mind. We do not think.
When emotions are strong, we tend to forget our surroundings and only see what we are believe from our emotions. Yet the fact that we are blinded by the strong emotion is not recognise.
When strong emotions surface, we tend to do absurd things like saying words that have been hidden deep in the heart.

Words said, words seen, WORDS... they are a way of expressing one's mind and one's emotion yet when use inappropriately can cause much pain.
Everyone gets to choose the words they use.

God given that liberty to each and every living being to have the right to speak their minds with the emotions they have and make it into words. Yet many foolish souls would not use their mind, allow their emotions to rule them and use unsophisticated words to express themselves. Making them look all the more silly.

Damages done will be done. The trust and respect gained will be long forgotten. It will take so much more time to gain it back.
If you are one who bothers how others look at you then be doomed for you would be view in another light.
It always takes longer to change an impression formed then no impression at all.

As the saying goes... " Mistakes fail in their mission of helping the person who blames them on the other fellow."

There are some things in life that are irreplaceable...

I learn today that there are times when your life gets so fogged up you miss the smallest details in life. Yet this are the things that help put you where you are.
Today I celebrated my granny's bday. Its alwaes the usually catering at the small 3 room flat in Toa Payoh where I grew up years back.

Today my granny said " I almost couldn't recognise you. " It sudden woke me up hard to realise that I used to go over weekly and yet now I only see my grandparents during occasions. I suddenly realise how much my granny had aged and that my granddi seem to be fussy more over her. It shocked me to know how much precious time I missed out on 2 very special people in my life. I suddenly felt so bad at not having to put some time aside for them and how unimportant I made them in my life when they are the very ones that taught me what values in life means. The ones that go through all the trouble just to make me feel like a Queen.

I feel so terrible. I gave them up for people who fail to appreciate the time I sacrifice in order to be there. I gave it up to people who slot me in time slots and when time is up, I'm on my own. This is stupid of me.
I never want to be someone who fill up a timeslot and give on people who alwaes give up all the time in the world just to have me around.

Sometimes you never know how important a person is until the person is no longer available. I really miss Adidi and Wendy, in fact I miss my clique... I miss being able to just be able to talk to them with just a call or just a simple sms. I miss " Just be yourself, we like that best. "

I missed the times where we would just celebrate each and every one of our bdae by puttin in that extra effort to thing of fun things like cupcakes = Bdae cake, after dinner = hang out and tok to your heart's content, fun = doing silly things...

I'm practically on Facebook daily because I'm addicted to FARMVILLE... slow but at least I started... hahaa!!!

일이 힘들어...

I am trying to figure out what do I have to do to make my job easier... Should I plan all the timelines together so I get a better view of what is happening on what project?

How do I do a tracker that will help? I'm not good at this... But I know I need to start a system or when the work floods in I will drown in it.

Seriously I'm not a super organise person and I'm only able to make things organise if I started the thing.. but now there are alot of incomplete work that I'm needed to handle and I don't really know where to start.... There is too much room for mistakes and its money we are talking about which I'm terrible at.

I was telling Adi on msn yesterday that one of my client is a bitch and I got the reply of " You are hired to be scolded by the client".
Come to think of it... he's right... but I don't want to be the one to get scolded, i want to be the one to tell them in their faces that they are obviously wrong and the reason they hired me is to help them not commit such mistakes.

I was scolded terribly yesterday by my boss for work that I am not clear and procedures that I ought to have done and yet have not. I was speechless in the room in front of my colleague as well but I could not say sorry not because I don't want to but my boss don't want to hear it. She refuse to hear me apologise. She says to take it as a lesson and remember every single mistake I did and not do it again.

This is a very demanding and stressful job... yet I learn to have to trust myself more and have more confidence in believing I am correct. The only way to make others convince is to be able to know every thing insde out and be firm of where I stand.

I seriously wonder some times did God really wanted to punish Eve which is why all of her descendants have to suffer the wrath.

I do agree women get most of the fun when it comes to shopping and trying to look their best but guys are so catching up.

Why do woman have to look pretty to be able to attract flies while they can just be as disgusting and still get someone decent?
Why do woman have to have the time of the month without the flies showing the least understanding while they can sulk at not being able to enjoy themselves?
Why do woman have to be neat, tidy, dainty and soft spoken while flies can be just a the most unruly, unkempt bore ever!

I'm just making a fuss cos my eyelash extensions are so irritating!!! Pretty but totally uncalled for...
Beauty...Its like the devil... Woman do anything to look beautiful even if it causes so much pain...

In my case, I really wanted to have thick lashes which I never ever had in my 20+ life time until I found fake lashes. Thou beautiful it takes too much time! I mean not everyone can afford to spend 5mins trying to adjust the lashes to fit in the exact shape of the eye...its no pinic. For extensions, I can only say its so strenuous on the eyes...The glueing it on.. the sting... the half block visions... the having to stretch your sockets so you get a good view...

Really its too much but I would wanna do it again... y? I duno... I pick the devil...

Well just realise todae's entry is so bimbotic... Hahaha!

Sandra
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