To Erase, Abandon, and Even Forget..

I did something I never had to do so far... I FINALLY TENDERED!!!

Yup! its time for me to go... to leave the comfort zone and move on to the bright unknown.

Emotions? How am I feeling?
To say the truth, it feels like everything lifted off my shoulder. A sudden curve at the corner of my lips.
The dae I tendered, I was in an extremely good mood. Everyone seem hapi around me too! hahaa!!! Maybe its oni me...

I do feel a little tugging at the heart thou. The people here that I'm starting to feel for. The connection of some bond. The fear of losing that connection once I leave the place. But well all good things comes to an end at a point in life and this is the point.

Wondering... Suddenly?
Actually I really did not mind hanging around til I found a job before throwing in the big R but well I got triggered last week and my determination snap. I wasn't fairing well and the results were disappointing to both my superior and myself. Things really wasn't going the way that it should and the stress was keeping me up all night. If there was solution, I would have done it already but I realise not every time you get a chance to rectify what when wrong.
Tempers were unleased, tears were coming... and that is when it occured to me that through it all, I still was not able to put in a perfect performance.
Instead of bringing down the standard of the whole show, it would be better to leave the stage. I tink that was what my boss thinks as well cos she did not try to hold me back.

Its like when I was back preparing for my dance competition, remembering what my instructor said... " You need to put in alot of effort and push yourself for that applause that you will deserve. 10mins on the stage, 10years of training before you get on." Live by that rule.
When I realise that a 100% was not in the job, I have already predicted the consequences and it was not pretty.

Maybe I really wasn't good enough...

No point in pondering now, may bygones be bygones.

This 2 weeks have been eventful... Laughters and Tears... Life and Death...

Saw this online and found it relatively interesting...

"When it comes to relationships, maybe we're all in glass houses, and shouldn't throw stones. Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies..."

I finally found the song I like... Listen...

Sometimes I truely wonder...

When a question is ask, what is expected?

When someone ask u something, wat responses is accepted? What is the theory behind the question asked? What exactly do the person want to hear?

Are questions ask to evoke a certain emotion? Or a general comment?

Sometimes I never know how to answer questions... Is it cos I care what the person asking will think? Maybe...

I'm bothered...

爱来过让我完整过, 幸福过
怎么能轻易就放他走
我不想解脱, 我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来... ...

世界很大会容得下我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰...

Sandra
1985

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