Thursday, February 28, 2008
3 moRe DaEs... Another year older... Is that a good thing? Hmmm...Not in my dream job...Did not get rich...Not any slimmer...Neither Taller...More knowleagdeable? I'm trying to find out...日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停...
Dancing for U @ 2:07 PM!Y
Haven been blogging for such a long time... I forgotten wat i wanna put down...Been realli busy at work with the new restructuring making its way into work life. Things are so different now... I used to have time for a breather and smiles but now its usually just constantly fighting battles, even if my arms and legs are no longer responding, I know I must finsh the battle. But how do you motivate yourself to go on when you know the battle never ends til the moment you finally fall? There seems to be alot more conflicts now with the new way of working. Everyone is going into unfimiliar grounds and defense machanism comes on by nature. Everyone gets jumpy and defensive about everything they do. The main aim? To bring everyone to work closer together... ... The whole FW team is falling apart. If hostility works for an open concept office then we definately got the best there is.
Dancing for U @ 2:01 PM!Y
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
바쁜...바쁜...바쁜...Work is really piling up all the way to my neck... I'm getting shorter...
Dancing for U @ 10:45 AM!Y
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I'm a sick feline...Keep falling sick since the week before CNY... the usual symptoms... FLu, throat inflammation, fever... and I'm still sick now...Was watching the korean news for 10mins yesterdae while channel surfing... Saw a sad news about Namdaemun being burnt. The blaze was realli strong from the scene i saw and now there is realli not much of it left...Read a report on it and koreans seems realli upset over it. A national monument... The ironic part is that apparantly it was being arson by a 61 year old korean who was bearing grudges regarding some punishment from another previous case. It suddenly dawn on me that if you want something, go for it. You never noe what will happen in the future and don't wanna live with regrets...
Dancing for U @ 10:00 AM!Y
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
I had a tot in the past few daes after some incidents and meeting up with frens...Not everyone appreicates people and things around them... in a matter of fact even I may have forgotten to be thankful for what was given to me.
Its sometimes sad to knoe that appreciation is lacking and people are not really thankful to what is place in front of them.
Is consant reminding a good way? I realised that everyone is facing a Erised Mirror. All you see is your wants. Its difficult to actually differeciate what are the actual needs and what are of wants. With life moving so fast... we tend to way along with everyone and everything in a direction.
If the latest craze is have a million dollars, everyone is at it. If the big thing is to own an apple iphone, everyone grabs it. It is times like that that sometimes put people in different catergories, "the fortunate ones", "the easy-going ones", " the poor ones", "the live with it ones"... The mirror of Erised shows such beautiful lies that you believe you are living it but when you stretch your hand out, you realise you cannot touch or feel physically and thats when you go berserk. Spend hours and hours in front of it, thinking "how is it possible?", "how can i grasp onto that beautiful life in the reflection?". But you will never notice that your life is slowly wasting away while your obsession grows.
This is when Dumbledore arrives and tell you that what you see in the reflection is what you want not reality, its not feasible to keep being obsess and forget you are living a life. That is when you snap out of the trance and learn to appreciate where you are and what you have at the very moment of your life. You realised you tried to get above yourself and destruction might just be round the corner. We could be facing 1 Erised mirror or many of them where every corner you turn its there, bringing you into the most beautiful picture painted that you are blinded by it. But not everyone can be so lucky to have a dumbledore near you, to help you see beyond the mirror.
I'm glad I met Dumbledore. I read this in Nightwatch and I tot for a moment it made simple sense, in the simple life of a man..." Why try to scramble higher up the ladder and fritter life away on acquiring a fancy car, invitations to high society parties, or an apartment with and extra room... what for? Enjoy life for its own sake, not for material posessions. Life was the exact opposite of money, which in itself meant nothing."
Dancing for U @ 10:29 AM!Y
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Feeling realli under the weather todae... I have an inflame throat, A v runny AND itchy nose and an ulcer in my throat... Remedy?I juz realise there is only a really thin line between good and bad.
I did my hair 2 daes ago and the 1 comment most pple tell me is not to be too loud cos its only a very thin line between bubbly and Ah Lian... Especially when its used on me...So I was tinkin myself to sleep last nite... The Thin Line...There is a very thin line between a crush and an obsession... You can have a crush on someone but crushes dun last that long and you dun feel much out of it. But if it becomes an obsession, things can get pretty pyscho... There is a very thin line between empathy and pity... I rem once I tried to give up my seat on the bus to this old lady who had lik tons of things but ended up being scolded for lookin down on her. Thats the very last time I gave up my seat. In Love, there is a very thin line between... Love and Habit
Love and Conquer
Leniency and Cruelty
Sometimes you really need to noe where you are standing and what exactly is the best for yourself so you dun cost pain to someone else. And I juz found out yesterday, for the first time I was irritated by a gentlemanly action simply becos it was carried out in the most male chauvinistic way.
Rather I found out that due to reasons, I realise ego can get so big tat all action done can seem so chauvinistic. Maybe God made all characters so similiar to each other that we are given a choice to choose exactly on which side of the line we choose to be on for any one situation. There is no right or wrong but its a control of yourself cos somethings said and done can never be undone. Never believe in forgive and forget unless you can really forget...
Dancing for U @ 8:54 AM!Y
