I guess I'm really Stressed up...

I'm tinkin and tinkin last nite and then I started to cry... I duno how long I cried cos I felt aslp crying...

The One above seem to have a way of making everyone's life go up and downand spinning around. And the next thing you knoe, you realise you are living in a crazy world and you have to pull yourself out of the whole crap... only then the One above gives you a breather and peace.

Someone said this...
" You don't want someone by choice but you need someone..."
" Sometimes you know you are ready to move on but you are too comfortable with where you are to start all over again. The first step is always the hardest becos you have no idea where it leads you, what you have to face, how much more pain you have to take this time, but if you never take that first step, you will never know what is in front of you."

I duno where I stand now. I'm comfortable but I knoe the comfort won't stay long. Where am I to place my footing then?

Life needs to slow down...

I had fun last nite...

Lots of fun! Thou its only 3 of us. Lots of Wine, lots of laughters, lots of pictures, lots of little personal talks...
I even manage to get my hilton cheese cake which I have been craving for the longest time.

Thanks for the nite Hansen n Jess!

Was suppose to watch HairSpray and was kinda lookin forward to it but well... it got cancel.
Will still be mitin Tendy, together with adi and Sam for Evan Almighty since HairSpray timing dun fit. Hope its good cos I really need a good movie to pull me thru.

Anw... lots of pple been askin me who is it that I'm addicted to...Hahaa! If you noe then u do...
Well.. aft last nite... the addiction wear off. Rather i decided the addiction should stop. What the point of having an addiction when u can't curb it with more?

My colleague intro me to this song... I like the tune and when I heard the lyrics... its good.



Lyrics to the heart...

If you wanna be my friend
You want us to get along
Please do not expect me to
Wrap it up and keep it there
The observation I am doing could
Easily be understood
As cynical demeanour
But one of us misread...
And what do you know
It happened again

A friend is not a means
You utilize to get somewhere
Somehow I didn't notice friendship is an end
What do you know
It happened again

How come no-one told me
All throughout history
The loneliest people
Were the ones who always spoke the truth
The ones who made a difference
By withstanding the indifference
I guess it's up to me now
Should I take that risk or just smile?
What do you know
It happened again
What do you know

Misread... Thats wat happen...

Running in my Mind...

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true

Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I'm likin’ it...

Juz manage to read Fish n Cin's blog...

Didnt know so much was gng on in everyones' life...

Then yesterdae i heard a little sad story from Cin...

Seriously... my life now evolve only around my work... I no longer have much time for anything, and its kinda depressing went I tink about it.

I really I ain't in contact with much pple and the pple tat i am in contact with r pple who I noe have time... anytime anywhere to mit me...

I only hear lots from pple i mit to noe of the pple i noe bt fail to contact... At a pt it cause me to tink " You have to make the effort to keep in contact..." But if pple do not contact me, does it mean that it doesnt matter?

Was reading Fish's blog and I'm glad she got passed the rough stage... I do agree with her tot of trying too hard in a relationship cos I've been thru it too... Guess its juz have to be the right person tat noes you... and I do mean truely noe u and not assume.

Reading Cin's blog and I muz say... I truely admire the wae she see things. I abstracted the below from her blog cos I really see it.

What guys dont understand is that no matter how tough a girl is, when we are in a relationship. we become weak. We need at least a sms per day. We used to be able to bite our teeth and learn to cry silently in our room. But when we are in a relationship, we need that reply to our call asap. If not, we may close that heart a little.

If who you love is that tough girl who dont depend on anyone, who dont need anyone when she cries, who can go through the whole day without a single sms/call, then why bother getting into a relationship? Relationship is to accept that person's weakness. Hold onto her till she is strong enough.

If you, man, has decided that you want a break, has decided that you cannot live with her anymore, has decided that you dont want to be that person this girl call in the middle of the night when she is crying, then leave her alone. You stabbed her once. You should leave and let her learn to stand up and cure. Staying there and look at her die will cause more wound. Staying there, giving occasional hope is only equal to letting go whenever you pull her up.

Leniency is cruelty when you have already decided you want to kill this relationship.

Life isnt goin as well as I want it to be... and I realise u cant expect someone to be there for u all the time. In fact in the past week tat I cried no one was around... Upsetting as it is, I also understand I'm not the only one with problems so I can only pray my daes get brighter and the road ahead less rocky.

I pray the same for all my frens...

Hmmm...

I'm tinkin really hard after reading the Tag comment...

Guess things do make a little sense... but can we not live with such "rigidity"?

Guess I'm the only one complaining cos I'm a bad planner...

I love life and I want to live it to the fullest but there are always too many "buts" in life... and tat make Me a dull person.

Lucky I have Colorful Frens! hahaa!!!

Feeling REALLY touchy and irritated todae...

Lik y r there pple bothering me with the things i have alr said and repeat myself numerous times!

I'm practically screaming @ every one around me... I really dun wanna tok... so can the fone stop ringin for the same damn reasons!

Anw, Faggy bought his timbaland disc so listening to it now... Love This guy! His music is groovy... Hahaa!! Like this one... Real sexy...


Fantasy - Timbaland

Life is so complicated...

Y cant things be easier? simple... A simple life... y do everything have to be so complicated?

Is there a need to play games?

Is there a need to have to be tall, thin and beautiful?

Is there a need to be rich and powerful?

Is there a need to plan your life thru and pray everydae works out the wae you plan it?

Y cant things be simple?

Y cant exterior be average and persnality count?

Y cant things nt be talked in monetary terms?

Y cant life be spontenous?

How long do you expect to live?

How can you say the sky would nt 1 dae crumble on you?

How do you judge that there is forever beauty?

How can you say you will not be brought down by your own games 1 dae?

Was watching Troy yesterdae and I love 1 thing Achilles said to his love during war...

" Everything looks more beautiful in times of like this, where you know you might not see it tommorow.."

Not in exact words... but i will always remember the scene..

If everything is planned and made the way you want it to be.. then where do you see the beauty of it?

Beauty of your plan? R u in love with yourself?

I'm just feeling...

I wish I'm a little more carefree...





Needed to cheer myself up... Alittle something to get my mind of work...

Love me just the way I r...

Haven been meeting Cindy ever since she started her new job...

But no worries! I made a date with her one month in advance! Hee! Juz waitin for the dae...

Juz some words to her...

" Dun stress yourself out too much... will get mental block! Remember to eat cos it makes pple happy! I will plan the dae for the outin.. nothing too pack so we can relax and tok abt wats gng on... even if we dun tok, I tink lookin at birds or reading a book would be a good wae to unwind ur tire mind.. so I'll plan! Take good care! "

I'm in office todae...

I'm back to do a interview....

Now I dun have to do it anymore...

My Life suck...

Anw, gonna get a calling card ltr! I wan to call my fish in Korea... I miss tokin to her...

The other dae after losin a whole nite of slp from an incident... I decided to call her on thurs... I really needed someone to understand wat I was gng thru and understand wat I was tinkin... N she understood...
Feel bad from bothering her slp bt I really felt so much beta after toking to her. I miss her around... No one to acc me home even if it means having to go a longer wae... No one to fag with.. No one to crap around... No one to scold me for being a bitch... No one to tease me abt introduction of guys... No one to listen to me...

I miss her... I really do.

Thou I'm a little more lonely now without her and life's a drag...

I really hope she is happy thr.

To Fish:

I noe you may feel lonely at times and life may not be a playground for u at the moment bt dun worry! Cos I can feel u... If ever u r in trouble or u need a fren, I'll b a fone call away.
Always remember tat it was u who told me tat we dun live with regret and so we should do what we set out for. I hope to see u achieve tat and put a smile on ur face!

I wanna look at ur new hair! I bet u look really pretty!

And can u pls find out hw I can get u thru sms cos the fone can get pretty irritatin when I cant get to u... Hahaa!!! And I want ur a/c number! Give it to me!

Lots of love for u! Maucks!

Why?

I'm really curious to knoe... Why me?

What do you like about me?

Sandra
1985

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