I'm terribly bored these daes... I have finished all my projects on hand n I'm kinda project-less. I feeling horridly tired for the past few daes due to that. I told Cin and she ticked me off. " First when u handle the P job, u rush here and there, then u complaint u very tired. Now u got nothing to do oso u complain tired!" So I told her, " yup! its never easy to be satisfied. " Hahaa!



Everyone seem to be talking about " Wo Jiao Jin San Shun ". I love that show, cos its funny. To say... I feel the female lead is a fantastic actress. The leads in this show are a group of F**King good looking pple!
Cin says its too draggy n so its not her cup of tea. But I like it! I like it cos it took alot for the main leads to actually be together. The whole realization of loving someone. I like that. U never know what u want til its not there. Cin n I are juz different like the sun n the moon. Put it in another way... She's Pluto and I'm Mars. She is stubborn when it comes to love. Me? I choose to let it go if its fruitless.

Oh! Did I mention I love the Piggy in the show. I tink She is so cute!


I want to be someone like the female character. I love her personality. Lovable...



OMG!!! Fish! lok wat I found!!!! Isnt he cute here?
Anw, this is the guy that I tink resembles Mr Chong so much!!! the more I look @ him the more I tink he looks like Mr Chong! * except the Slimmer Mr Chong*

Ooooou..... I'm so excited! I'm gng to watch SHINWA soon! Fish juz came back from BK from their concert thr. The tix thr is DAMN Cool!!! Its so pretty! I'm starting to agree with Fish, " Y the stupid sistic only give paper." Hahaa!


Found this pix online. Guess its kinda old, but juz to justify that I'm really kinda excited to see them perform soon.

Todae is Fridae. I'm not working tml. So.... its PHUTURE DAE!!! Hahaa! Relax myself.

To Darling Brother SAM:

When U first join the family, I was only 9.
U were so cute, so cuddly, so small. U came as a gift, and I tot God answered my prayer. I love U very much.
There were times where U fall so sick, U vomitted worms. The whole family was so worried, we brought to the doc's for a jab.
There was a time we were all playing and I accidentally stepped on U and broke your leg. We had to bring U to the doc's to mend it, leaving it in a cast for months. I felt so bad, I carried U all the time.
U were always too friendly. U love chasing the pigeons and playing with the cats. Remember the time U tried to be too nice n the cat scatched U? Ur ear was constantly bleeding n we had to wrap it up cos everytime U shake ur head, U splatter the blood all over the wall.
Time really past. U are no longer small and overly active. N I was no longer free to play with U every day.
U start to fall sick frequently, n I try to avoid the tot that U might me leaving the family soon.
Now U left n I regret. I wish I could hold U n Never let go.

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me,
I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside,
but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you,
but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness,
deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had,
oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I Love U through and through...

Its WednesDae... and I'm in the office. Hahaa...

I'm going mad soon! Seriously tearing out all my hair. Maybe i dun even have to do that... my hair is falling out @ a terrifying rate. I feel like a dog during the half yr period...

People can be such ASSES! They totally do not bother if they get others in deep shit or fucked up people's life! No sense of responsibility n are total robots! Brains apparantly are foreign objects. * roll eyes*

I hate STUPID Bitches who vent their stupid anger on others juz becos some Moron gave them shit. Where are their sense?
I need a Rainbow in my Life....



This is wat i really wanna do...

It seems like these daes I can never sleep properly and keep waking up shockingly late. My whole body is aching, my neck feels like its hardening with each passing dae.




Darling Fishy n frens are flying off to Bangkok to go Crazy over her husband n band. That is like so cool. Imagine the fun they will be having... I wish I had that kind of time n $$$.
I love staying in hotels. I dunno y but i love that... maybe cos I dun hav to bother to clean up after myself. Hahaa! Juz slacking on the bed, reading a book or papers, sleeping anytime I desire n soaking in the tub...aaahhh... perfect.


This was taken on Saturdae... Maybe it was a mistake to have this memory...

Cin seem so depress @ times ever since we met up on that faithful dae. Its making me frustrated cos I have no idea n no way to get the maggot out of her mind. Watever I said never seem to go into her brain. Nice way of saying n harsh way of reprimanding... Nothing seem to work on her. How else can I tell her to stop being upset over this one person who can never give her the correct ans she wants?

I, myself learnt it the hard way... The world doesn't stop for you juz becos you r sad. Everyone is still living their lives no matter how depress urs gets. The person who do not love you will never understand y you r always crying over every little thing she done. Thats the reality.

Something I remember that Candice said that goes something like that... " U r only around when I'm happy, but you are never there when I'm sad."
I used to tell you that is so sad... but it is oso true. No one wants to be around a person who is constantly in pain. N its worse when you can feel the pain but have no way of helping the person relief of that pain.


Juz wish you will smile beautifully FROM THE HEART...

I'm stress out these daes... n I fell in love with this song...

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

The missing piece to this picture is back...

Yes, Darling Donkey is back and we finally mit! I hate her! She is freaking small now n she refuses to eat. Then she ask me to grow fatter so she looks even slimmer! Trust her to come up with such an idea. I hope she faints! Hmph! * cross fingers*
The 3 musketeers are back again. To save the world... okie, Bulls**t. We met on Sat n had fun but awkward moments as well. Guess we lost some of our farmiliarness after such a long time.
We took a NEO-Print!!! Very cute! Hope Cin scans it in.

Went Phuture on Fridae...
Didnt wanna go. Wanted to chill w Jess, but Ivan personally called so cant say ' No ' cos its his Bdae. " Happy Birthdae Boy!" Sorry didnt accompany you for long...

Anw, ended up in Phuture w Fish, Jess n Hansen. Spotted my eye candy as usual... but tis time there was a big diff. I finally got to noe his name. All Thanks to Jess * Bow 90 degrees* n Hansen * salute* n i guess i gotta thank the touchy fren of my eye candy. Cos if it wasnt for him being touchy w me n then Jess maybe I wouldnt have chance.
I'm gutless. I had so many chances to actually noe him myself but I didnt dare, maybe cos sub-consciously I'm afraid of rejection. I nv had once when I will go up to knoe someone. Its kinda scary, like if the person tinks I'm a dope.
Anw, a fight almost broke out becos of that touchy guy. Due to the almost broke out fight that Jess took the chance to go noe my eye candy for me. She even brought him to knoe me. * red tomato attack!* I was totally blushing n I DO NOT noe how to react to 1) the fight situation 2) the get to noe eye candy situation. I felt my heart almost raced @ supreme speed. * cant breathe*

After that fish, Hansen n Jess did all they can to push me towards my eye candy. They wanted me to dance w my eye candy, I went rigid the moment i gt near. I tried but guess it was awkward. Thanks my 3 buddies anw...* Bow 90 degrees X 3*

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

I wish tis would have happen but it didnt. I only steal glances...

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

Yup! I went weak in the knees...


Well, to conclude, I was upset over the whole event. Y?
Cos I'm a Eeeeenormous Gutless Bitch.
I felt my eye candy liking towards Jess. Guess it norm, as she beautiful n outgoing. Who wouldn't love her?
I almost cost a fight, n I tink for once Cin, you r rite... I'm the True Dumb Blonde *boo hoo*

Thinking it thru, I can only blame myself... If I had e guts enough to knoe my eye candy... but who cares! Its okie! At least I found out that mine Frens can be so ethusiastic about my interest. Hahaa!

Fish told me to give this eye candy a miss anw, so well... We'll see about it. Hahaa!

Sat n sun is the usual, hanging out with Cin. We are Sat n Sun people!

To all my Dear Dear Frens -- You are all Angels in Diguise

I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea.

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich.
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise

Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side

Love wins. Love always wins.

Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae! Fridae!

Its finally Fridae... but todae is a hectic dae... A fucked up dae... A sad dae... A waiting dae... A constipated dae...

Oh! I forgot to add, a dae I'm happy 4 Cindy dae.

Todae was so hectic since morn! I woke up late cos I couldnt slp the nite b4. I'm too stress out w my Briefing todae. *roll eyes*
So I had to rush everything n ended up takin a cab to wrk. *duh*
Then when I got dwn the cab, I drop my gold coin into the drain!!Argh!!! $1 lost!!! *panick* but late alr so no choice but to let it go...

Then @ 1pm, I had my first ever Briefing which I totally fucked it up. *sigh* I suck @ tis! Luckily, I couldnt screw it up too badly cos my boss was thr to help me. *sigh sigh*

A colleague of mine is leaving, juz went we started to b on really gd terms... Feel some regret to noe her only for this short period of time. Wish I had more time to get to noe her better.

Now, I'm sitting in the office waiting... waiting for Fishy to arrive n waitin for my colleague to help me find the manpower I need.
Its so ironic, cos pple constantly hav to wait for me n now I'm forever waiting. Waiting for bus, waiting to get down bus, waiting for the stupid com to come in use, waiting for Emails, Waiting for project finalization, waiting for pple to be found, waiting for interviewers to come in, waiting for researchers to hand me materials, waiting for the photocopier, waiting for PDAs, waiting for results, waiting for payment replies, waiting for fridaes... I really tink KARMA is working its way on me.

And now I'm actually waiting to shit! cos I'm feeling constipated n yet nothing wants to come out of my asshole!!!

Hey Cin darlin, sorry for not msging you back todae... Really busy n my desk is piled w mountains of papers so have to sort every little thing out. Didnt even get to read my fone til now.
Luv ur hair! I wanna see it for real. look cute in the pix. Have u done ur nose yet? Mit me sn!!!! When u r not so tired.

Faster kill faster still pussycat
i cant stand to see you cry,
honey you know where the world is at,
get what you want with your lucky eyes

you turn me on,
you know your turning me,
you know your turning me on,
you turn me on,
you know your turning me, you know your turning me on,

better wake up this sleep head,
big old world will pass us by,
so many things we could do instead,
get what you want with your lucky eyes,

faster kill faster still pussycat,
those high heels are not your friends,
honey you know where the world is at,
come home with me when the party ends,

heaven knows i tried to let you go,
i cant help myself you know im out of control,
heaven knows i tried to let you go,
i cant help myself i think im losing control,

you turn me on,
you know your turning me, you know your turning me on,
you turn me on,
you know your turning me, you know your turning me on,
you turn me on,
you know your turning me, you know your turning me on,
you turn me on,
you know your turning me, you know your turning me on...

Todae, i get to see my eye candy...

To da one on da flamboyant tip
I'll just toss that ham in the fryin?
pan like spam, get down when I come and slam
Damn, I feel like the Son of Sam
Don't make me wreck shit, hectic
Next get the chair got me goin like
General Electric And the lights are blinkin?I'm thinkin?
It's all over when I go out drinkin?
Ohh, makin?my mind slow
That's why I don't fuck with the big four-oh Bro,
I gotta maintain
Cause a nigga like me is goin insane

Insane in da membrane.. insane in da brain!
Insane in da membrane.. insane in da brain!
Insane in da membrane.. crazy insane, got no brain!
Insane in da membrane.. insane in da brain!

I'm losing my mind! I'm fucking stress out with my project.

Juz planing my project has alr cause GREAT damage to my single brain cell. I can predict I'll b losing alot of hair in the near future... Ahhh!!! Now My brain is worse then a Goldfish. I'm practically vegetable.

Tml will be my first briefing and contact with interviewers. Hopefully tis pple dun ruin my dae. I'm getting real stress up. I can't tink for very much...

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I finally Got my PAYCHECK!!!!!!! Yeah!



Anw, got tis pix out of courtesy of Cin's blog. I luv tis pix. Lets do it agn Cin! Fridae!

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
In the land that I heard of once
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams
That you dare to dream
Really do come true

Someday I wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like melon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams
That you dare to dream
Really do come true

If happy little bluebirds fly
Above the rainbow,
why Oh, why can't I?

I love this song, espeacially the new version sang by Catherine McPhee. "If happy little bluebirds fly, above the rainbow, why Oh, why can't I?" Believe... One dae, I can fly too.

When Phuture on Fridae as usual. But tis time there is a slight diff... Hahaa... I was standing closer to my eye candy! Shoulder to shoulder... okie, its no big deal but @ least thr is progress rite... but then I kinda suspect maybe my eye candy is interested in Jess. Hmmm... I juz hate Jess. Always attracting all the eyes, but I love her as my fren. I'm so confuse! This is such a love- hate relationship.

I still love you lots Jess!

Sat was our Dolly gal Si Yong's Bdae celebration. Had a rolling good time w the rest of the clique, thou I wld hav to say, it was a waste Ber was sick n had to slp thru the party. I oso wanna praise Wendy for still makin the effort to come over @ 4am to join the rest of us for early breakfast.

When hm early Sundae morn w Sy n Will. Got hm, bathe n met up w Sy for ' mee hun kueh'. Hahaa! Chatted n gossiped for a while then when hm to pig it off til 1845. *Zzzzzzz.....*

Met Cin in the nite for dinner @ the new Hongkong Cafe that was opened thr. * Bo Luo Bao!!!* Chatted w her, and realise she's still v raw w hurt n v stuck. I dunno how long she will tke to come out of the whole situation but I hope she wouldn't tke too long.

Maybe cos, I've been thru the whole shit but in a diff role. To say the fact, maybe I'm really not such a sensitive person, I can't fully put myself in the other person's shoes, but I hav 1 thing to say... I truely cannot understand why cin or Tiff can fall in so deeply when fr the start nothing was given in return?

I dun mean like u muz expect watever u given to be recipocated but @ least the minimum feeling of love should b expected. From the situations, none, nothing, zits, zero. WHY?
If its cos they have been nice to you or make you feel special, I can only say they do it to everyone. If you say its different, then maybe you need to ask pple before you... cos there is 1 thing I learnt. U always tink you are special, you always feel the person treats you better, you always feel happier w the person. Do you realise it starts w You? But do the person feel the exact same way? Is the person tinkin lik u? Really... to b harsh, they might not b. In short, if you wan to fall for a person without even knowing if the person like you, then know when to stop.

Wat a meanie I am...

Hahaa! I'm gng to watch ShinWa w Fishy fish n her frens So exciting... Finally get to see in real wat Fish is all Crazy abt. Wat should I wear? All Kim Kim? Hee!


Well, I wanna tell all my Frens, " U are being Cherished " No fullstop to that statment. Big hug for all.

Sandra
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