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I told U everything. Opened up and let U in. U made me feel alright, for once in my life. Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside...'Cause I can't breathe... I can't sleep, I'm barely hangin' on. Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces. Can't deny it, can't pretend, just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears I cry. Behind these hazel eyes. Swallow me then spit me out. For hating U( I never did), I blame myself. Seeing you it kills me now, I don't cry on the outside.... Anymore "
Kelly Clarkson's ' Behind This Hazel Eyes' . Felt in love with in a long time ago. Why? Think cos it fits me. Have you ever for once felt like you are so torn up inside but yet you have to face the world and everyone in it with a smile. To have to swallow back all the tears that have welled up inside you. To be torn apart but words and actions but to only say ' I'm alright!'.
Maybe it is best to keep it all inside. To hold it all. Nobody wants to be around a sad person. Nobody wants to always be saying ' Cheer up! You'll be alright.' . Nobody wants to be around to wait for you to be happy again, cos the world do not wait for you and so does the people living in it. Nobody wants to be around...
Its been a long long time since I updated my blog. i'm so sick of computers tat I REFUSE to use the computer @ home. Hahaa! Nw guess wat! I'm in the office using the computer to blog! Hahaa! So happy! the last time I tried I couldn't get in so I tot access was forbidden until my colleague told me she have been reading so many pples' blog!!!
I miss blogging! Seem like I always can't express the way I feel much. This feels so good.
Hey pple! I miss all of you out there!
Jess! I finally blogging. I know you been trying to get me. I miss you like hell! How are you? R you sick free yet? Have you receive any of my letters? I'm so missing you. Can you please come back now. I need you around to accompany me! Life ain't so good. Lots of things pulling me down. Way way down. I feel so lonely @ times. Yet no one seems to be around. I dunoe if I can make it to see you. I'm still really short of a large amount. Upset! Let me noe how you are doing okie!
Donkey darlin' study hard ya! If you are sad or upset, remember that I'm always there.
Fish!!! How is Taiwan? I miss you. Come back soon! Let's go eat together. Buy me a present? Hee!
Yikes! Colleagues screaming for me to get out. Will be blogging soon.
Sunshine Smile. Sunshine Laugh. Sunshine be Happy everydae!
