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Ever since the day U went away and left me lonely and cold. My life just hasn't been the same baby no. When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let U go. I just broke down... Baby if I ever get the chance to be with U again I would sacrafice. Cuz the feelin that I feel within no other woman would make me feel so right. Its nice to smile when i get your phone call at night, but I rather have U here with me, right next to me, and I miss the way U hold me tight. I've got to let U know I feel so weak without your touch. I never thought I could ever love a girl so much. I've gotta let U know that I think we are destiny. For U I cross the world. For U, I'd do anything. Thats right baby, Im goin crazy! I need to be your lady, I been thinkin lately... "
Natalie's ' Goin' Crazy' , I have been so in love with this song for so long and I finally got the words to it. Much to my delight... Its Beautiful. It speaks for me. U?
In the office blogging again. Was feeling so dizzy and joyful when Jess called yesterday. Really miss that gal. Thanks for calling me to cheer me up.
Ytd was disasterous! Got in to deep shit with a Irritating and mind me its VERY IRRITATING customer and so I got a real jab from him. All cos of his stupid complaint of me refusing to say ' I'm Sorry' that he had to fuss up the whole big matter. For info, I did not do anything wrong. He just wanted to hear me apologise cos he's feeling low and needed it as a ' perk me up' . What an A**! Anywae it got so big, it when to Service Quality(SQ) and well to cut things short, I got reprimanded. He's a pilot! My god! Too bad he isnt too normal in the mind.
My assistant manager even said that all I had to do was to say sorry to him. ' Can your SORRY please dun be so expensive', That what she told me.
Wooh... Hmmm.. Am I really suppose to do that? Well, I'm stubborn to an extend and I do HATE saying sorry.
After all the drama- mama in the office, met Cin and Bren for dinner. Cool. Bren still as pretty but Cin seems to lose some of her perks too. Scolded me on a jacket matter. Well, I admit that was my fault. Not being very considerate I guess. The dinner was good thou. Had good food and even ate the souffle with red bean paste and banana. Hahaa! Make a guess whr I went.
Then met Celeste (new kid on the block- intro? SISSY BUNG) together with cin for KTV cos I really needed to let it all out. I lost my voice singing! Hahaa! Fun. Couldn't get enough of it. Sang songs that are always sung and songs that ain't that popoular. Had to sing ' Guang Dao Zi Lian ' alone... so pathetic -_-" Hee!
When home and just kept missing... missing part of my heart thats not around.
Today is hectic, hectic and hectic. Think for the following months I won't be having any Sunday off cos Bevi is a must to work on Sundaes. *sigh* Anw, Life is empty, to think I can still earn money isn't such a bad idea.
Donkey, you please take care and meet for dinner ya! You beta dun fly my aeroplane or I'll never gona meet you again. This is strictly for warning purposes. Heez!
Cin, cheer up ya. Sissy bung seems worried abt you.
Jess!!! I miss you! I miss you! I MISS YOU!!!
I'm turning yellow... think I'm withering... where's my Sunshine? I really need Sunshine...
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I told U everything. Opened up and let U in. U made me feel alright, for once in my life. Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside...'Cause I can't breathe... I can't sleep, I'm barely hangin' on. Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces. Can't deny it, can't pretend, just thought you were the one. Broken up, deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears I cry. Behind these hazel eyes. Swallow me then spit me out. For hating U( I never did), I blame myself. Seeing you it kills me now, I don't cry on the outside.... Anymore "
Kelly Clarkson's ' Behind This Hazel Eyes' . Felt in love with in a long time ago. Why? Think cos it fits me. Have you ever for once felt like you are so torn up inside but yet you have to face the world and everyone in it with a smile. To have to swallow back all the tears that have welled up inside you. To be torn apart but words and actions but to only say ' I'm alright!'.
Maybe it is best to keep it all inside. To hold it all. Nobody wants to be around a sad person. Nobody wants to always be saying ' Cheer up! You'll be alright.' . Nobody wants to be around to wait for you to be happy again, cos the world do not wait for you and so does the people living in it. Nobody wants to be around...
Its been a long long time since I updated my blog. i'm so sick of computers tat I REFUSE to use the computer @ home. Hahaa! Nw guess wat! I'm in the office using the computer to blog! Hahaa! So happy! the last time I tried I couldn't get in so I tot access was forbidden until my colleague told me she have been reading so many pples' blog!!!
I miss blogging! Seem like I always can't express the way I feel much. This feels so good.
Hey pple! I miss all of you out there!
Jess! I finally blogging. I know you been trying to get me. I miss you like hell! How are you? R you sick free yet? Have you receive any of my letters? I'm so missing you. Can you please come back now. I need you around to accompany me! Life ain't so good. Lots of things pulling me down. Way way down. I feel so lonely @ times. Yet no one seems to be around. I dunoe if I can make it to see you. I'm still really short of a large amount. Upset! Let me noe how you are doing okie!
Donkey darlin' study hard ya! If you are sad or upset, remember that I'm always there.
Fish!!! How is Taiwan? I miss you. Come back soon! Let's go eat together. Buy me a present? Hee!
Yikes! Colleagues screaming for me to get out. Will be blogging soon.
Sunshine Smile. Sunshine Laugh. Sunshine be Happy everydae!
