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I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky...but why, why can't it be mine? "
Have anyone felt like that before? Doesn't it feel helpless?
Loving someone so much that all to think of is to want that person to be truely happy everyday. Yet the only way the person can be happy is to be with someone else. Yet the hope that that person can be happy with you as well. What would you choose? Can I choose to be selfish and want the person to stay with me? Can the person be the bright star in my sky? To lighten up my nights?
I'm so stress out from work!!! I'm so stress... My wrk is really gettin to me... I cried from being so stress from wrk last wk. Felt so congested. Felt lik everything and everyone was pressing dwn on me. Yet there wasn't anyone I could tok to.
Today I offically had to wrk and make all the decisions myself. I realise there r so many things that I do nt know and so many different kinds of situations that I cannot cope with. I felt so bad having to keep asking for help. I feel even worse when others have to help me handle the whole case. Haiz....
Then there is like tons of work to be done, so many customer to call back and handle. My table looked like a war juz happened and customers kept calling to ask me to do this , discount for that, appeal for tis, better rates, why make their life difficult, why so rigid, wat r the dates for payments? why interest so high, why can't revise, why? Why? WHY? WHY?!!!!!
Do I look like SCB in any way? Do I look like I really out to make their lives difficult? Do I look like I'm the one that makes all the policies and rules?
I'm really trying very hard to help by giving the lowest that I can.I really am. I'm not the bank, I can't give you ppl watever you wan.
These days I can't really smile that much. Guess its partially cos I'm tire, I'm stress out and there seems to be problems that I can't do anything abt even if I really wanted to.
Life went past w me watching DIM SUM DOLLIES, me CRYING THE HELL OUT, me STARING AT MY FONE ALL DAY, me WATCHING MOVIES, me GOING TANNING, me GET SUPER STRESS, me TRYING TO GET THINGS FIX, me WRKING MORE, me CELEBRATING MY PO PO B'DAE, me STUFFING MYSELF W FOOD, me LOOKING FOR PPL FOR COMPANY, me CRAVING TO WRK OUT, me WANTING TO BE HAPPY, me MISSING JESS MORE, me MISSING MY LIFE MORE, me WANTING TO REALLY TALK TO SOMEONE, me WANTING TO JUST BE LEFT ALONE...
Met Bren's boyfren ytd. Micheal... The American guy she truly love. He's real funny n they were real loving. It felt so nice to watch them just tok, tease, joke n laugh to each other.Watching them truly appreciate each other and the time they treasure. I truly wish they will stay w each other cos they r really loving. No matter wat obstacles they will have to face in the future, I hope they won't give up on each other. If truly in love n to let go cos there r times where things r had to bear, there will only be regrets.
Jess... I really miss you lots... pls take care of urself there. I miss having you arnd to cheer me up or go eat crazily together. No more steamboat... Times really get lonely w/o you. put more pixs on ur blog so I noe how you r over there okie.
Donkey... study hard. Noe ur personal life is getting complicated agn n know you r trying to change somethings in it. Hope you can make it. Study hard and meet me for prata. I want to know the updates in ur life.
How r u Ms Bao, Phine? How have you all been? Wrk been busy. Hardly even talk to you all anymore. R ur lives okie? Happy? The weather kinda rainy these days. Dun get caught in the rain ya!
I want to take pictures... lots and lots of pictures... I realise my life have been passing me so fast... I realise I have miss out on so so much of my life. I realise I'm regretting not capturing more of my life in the past. I'm staring to miss all the times in the past.
Now I want take down all the little details in my life. All the ppl in my life. I dun wan to miss or lose any of them.
I want to truly treasure the ppl and things arnd me.
Smile My Sunshine...
