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Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away. Now it looks as though they're here to stay. Oh, I believe in yesterday. Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be, there's a shadow hanging over me. Oh, yesterday came suddenly...
Why she had to go I don't know she wouldn't say. I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play. Now I need a place to hide away. Oh, I believe in yesterday. "
I love tis song... n guess now that im feelin sorrowful... I really wish the past would come back...
Turn back time to went I was innocent n juz Happy everyday....
The Truth...
Im startin to feel the change in me. Im startin to not believe in things ppl say anymore... Im even doubting the close ppl arnd me... n Im hell lot more doubting u.
Guess the whole thing left a really bad scar for me or to say it triggered my painful tots back again...
All the bad vibes seem to be gettin to me... Im startin to feel my weakness comin out again....
Im starin to cry over things again... Im startin to cry juz tinkin of all that has happened...
Wat am I gona do?
To say the fact... I never really got angry at the whole matter. I started w bein so worried then I became sad, then it became disappointment. N now Im just numb from all feelings... Im just tryin to shut myself out. I dun wan anyone to turn against anyone or anymore bad things to come to anyone.
Everyone seem to be living in denial... n if living in denial makes pplppy then go ahead. I mean I've been in it too... to keep believing in everything u say. But trust me, when the time when the reality comes *smack* rite in ur face, the pain that follows is hell more insufferable.
Lies...Lies...Lies...n MORE Lies...
Didnt anyone ever mention how much trouble it causes? n how much pain it brings? Didn't no one ever mention that 1 lie leads to another n another n another? n soon all that u r doin is to lie to cover another lie. It doesn't stop there, u will just hav to carry all the lies w u n live a lie ur whole life! Dun anyone get it! Dun anyone take morals seriously?
Hurting ppl, usin ppl, selfish ppl...
Y r you or you or u hurting ppl? Is there not enough hurt in tis world? dun u all see the pain tat ppl arnd u hav to go thru? Y inflict more? Everyone just want to live a life n try to forget how painful life can get. So y inflict the hurt? Don't anyone feel the wound?
Wat r the ppl arnd meant to you n u? just tools? Dun act all friendly went You hav long plotted to use n then hurt them! Cause we r oni Humans. We do feel the pain.... We can't erase bad moments. Y make life difficult? R there no frens in tis world to you? Ain't any of us frens? Y plot us into all the sinister n then try to get out leaving us to die? Is tat wat is called a ' fren' ? I would lik to noe your defination of a 'fren'. Spare a tot pls... cos it all hurts...
Selfish ppl w motives... wats w all the smiles, the nice talks, the friendly touch, the jokes, the fun, the tots of u... All just selfish acts! Everything done w a motive!
Yes! I've been hurt, scared badly. I maybe use / used n the pain lives. I've met selfish individuals, n they make me cry...
To the one who lives in denial:
Stop denying anything! Stop sayin you r innocent! Stop your act! Just stop! Let the matter rest... Its a really bad experience, but pls just let it rest... No more hurt, no more lies, no more usin your frens... just stop. Tats all I ask for. You want to live a carefree n happy life, with no troubles arnd you. So do any of us.
Everyone makes mistakes... dun use lies to cover for the mistake made cos it oni leads to misery.
Learn that things done have been done. Pain inflicted has been there. wounds earned r just part of life. Learn to open up to the bigger world out there. Look at the bigger picture. Stop living in the small frame where all you see is yourself.
Forgive n Forget. Truth n courage would always bring along forgiveness.
Read cin's blog, n i feel lik cryin...
Open ur heart... give out n in return receive love. don't be afraid of pain or loneliness cos its part of life...
Cin, I like to do tat but unfortunately my wounds can't heal n Im scared... very scared to open my heart again cos the pain is too great.
Everyone said I changed n yes I did. But I duno how to go back. Cos there's no turnin point... I chose to walk down tis lane accompanied by pain n loneliness. Maybe up ahead the lane will spilt up to 2 n then I can make a decision again. But deep down I never tot it was the wrong way I went n I wish to continue walkin. Til one day my heart stop there.
Should I go work at Bivi? I duno... It feels funi to be workin at a place I used to want to shun most... N workin at places lik tis reminds me of wat I had b4. Reminds me of lips era... I dun wan the feelings to change... will the feelin be the same? An ivory tower for me?
Feelings are things everyone have. Don't go around hurting the people in ur life, cos if they love u they will stay n be hurt. Those who don't love u enough will leave but with a hope of coming back. But for the one who loves u u've hurt, the continuing of pain will eventually bring death. Thats went u noe they will never come back.
